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At 9 37pm I was downstairs on 2 computers... then the power went out!
How did I survive? Find out later when I'm not too lazy to write all of it.


~ R. U. L. E. S ~
1. Repost these rules in your journal
2. List down 10 facts about yourself that you think a lot of people do not know about.
3. After answering this, tag other people to do the same thing.
4. Go to their sites and leave a comment saying that they have been tagged by you.
5. Do not tag the person who tagged you

~ S.H.I.T. ~
1. the other day I remembered the first time i ever thought about killing myself. I dont know how old I was but it was some time between 5th and 8th grade. Me and my family were at Disney world and my mom yelled at all of us cuz we didnt want to go on any rides in Epcot, so we were walking back to the car. As we were walking in the parking-lot I was crying and contemplating on whether I should jump in front of a car or not.
2. I can never seem to finish a book. Well I do eventually but it takes me a while. I am currently reading 6 ! novels.
3. when I was younger I loathed reading. I think I started to like it 10th grade.
4. I never had an imaginary friend when I was little (Dillon did) but I have one now... at the age of 19.
5. I didnt technically drop out of college. I just stopped going back in October and they havent called, sent mail, emailed, or anything.
6. I used to get nervous when I would bring home people to meet my sister because she is so much prettier than me. (past tense cuz i dont have friends off online anymore)
7. I am a huge romantic
8. I still hum the theme from the video game 'Top Gear' for the Super Nintendo becuase it was the best game EVER and it reminds me of when I was young, innocent, and didnt know about the horrors of the world
9. I am way to open with my brother. It sickens him but I find it funny
10. when I was young I was always playing outside... now Im a fucking hermit

I am not tagging anyone cuz so many people have already done this. If you want to do it, go for it.

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got this from 's journal.

Leave me a comment on this journal and I will:

a) Tell you why I friended you,
b) Associate you with something - fandom, a song, a colour, a photo, etc.,
c) Tell you something I like about you,
d) Tell you a memory I have of you,
e) Ask something I've always wanted to know about you,
f) Tell you my favorite user pic of yours,
g) In return, you must post this in your journal.



btw. I just had another apple. lmao

and my 'mood' thing for the journal hasnt been working >.<

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For the first time EVER in my entire 19 years and 3 months of life I ate an apple without cutting it up.

lmao

my teeth hurt after.... well not really hurt just felt weird.

when I told my mom that it was the first time I ever did that she wondered where she went wrong in raising me.

I tend to make my parents wonder that a lot




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Ok. I was looking over my chat transcripts to delete old ones and stuff and I found a couple of mine and Dillon's convos from when we hear mom and dad fucking and decided to share!
I changed our screen names cuz I didnt want to give out Dillon's.

January 7, 2008
9:43:37 PM D: ......
9:43:40 PM S: ?
9:43:47 PM D: you didnt hear
9:43:51 PM S: no i did
9:43:57 PM S: i have my headphones on now
9:43:59 PM S: lmao
9:44:00 PM D: hahah
9:44:01 PM D: good
9:44:06 PM D: i blasted my metal
9:44:14 PM S: blasting PotC:AWE
9:44:18 PM D: lol
9:44:25 PM D: Amon Amarth
9:44:29 PM S: lol
9:44:40 PM S: we have great lives
9:44:40 PM S: lol
9:44:48 PM D: haha
9:44:52 PM D: i think its the other way aroung
9:45:00 PM S: lmmfao
9:45:11 PM D: im kinda grossed out right now
9:45:16 PM S: i always am
9:45:23 PM S: oh last week was the worst though
9:45:33 PM S: i was watching porn and then i heard it
9:45:41 PM S: THAT was bad
9:45:46 PM D: hahahahah
9:45:52 PM S: lol
10:14:02 PM S: its weird talking to them after that
10:14:03 PM S: lol
10:14:10 PM D: i refuse to
10:14:21 PM S: well it not like i had a choice
10:14:28 PM D: i dont look at them
10:14:29 PM S: he came in my room and started talkin
10:14:30 PM S: lol
10:14:56 PM D: lol
10:15:06 PM D: i think its worse when its mom
10:15:21 PM S: yea cuz shes the one you hear
10:15:30 PM S: plus you kinda dont want your mom to have sex
10:15:36 PM S: its ok if its your dad
10:15:37 PM S: lol
10:16:05 PM D: hahah

June 8, 2008
8:53:20 PM D: want to get food now
8:53:41 PM S: you drive?]
8:53:45 PM D: if you pay
8:53:55 PM S: kk
8:54:00 PM D: ok
8:54:05 PM D: im pissin right now so give me a sec
8:54:08 PM S: kk
8:56:57 PM S: ummm im scared to leave my room cuz they're fucking
8:57:07 PM D: just bolt out
8:57:21 PM S: but my laptop and libby
8:57:31 PM D: why do you need your laptop
8:57:35 PM D: leave libby
8:57:39 PM S: to bring it downstairs
8:57:54 PM D: then put it lal in your arms
8:57:55 PM D: and run
8:59:07 PM S: k they're done
8:59:43 PM D: K
8:59:47 PM D: lets go

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My parents went to see Dr. Curtis (my therapist) yesterday so he could tell them that yes, I am insane and there is nothing he can do about it, but he thinks he can make me able to function out in the real world.
Mommy and Daddy were so happy that they said they would reward me. I immediately thought of a digital camera cuz I have wanted one for a while.
So dad handed me $400 dollars and sent me and Dillon to best buy.
I know nothing about cameras so Dillon gave me a couple of good ones to pick from and of course I chose the best, most expensive one (that was in our price range).

its a Canon PowerShot SX100 IS digital camera! ^.^

~ 8.0 mega pixels
~ 10x optical zoom
~ OPTICAL image stabilizer
~ 2.5" LCD
~ DiGiC III
~ Face Detection AF/AE/FE
~ Red-eye Correction
~ ISO 1600
~ 1cm 0.4in. macro
~ Movie 30fps/VGA
~ 16 : 9 widescreen
~ SDHC
~ MMC +PLUS HC
~ PictBridge

I have no idea what any of that means but Dillon said "it pwns" so its good. lol

I'm bringing it to work today to take pics of Reese. Maybe I willl upload them later today >.<

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